Race to embrace

RACE TO EMBRACE

When I saw a recommending post from a good friend of mine about documentary called Race to Embrace, immediately I asked her what is about. Race to Embrace is a impact documentary about the global issue of body loathing. Taryn Brumfitt is an body image activist, who swallows her pride and show her story to the world. This film brings this common issue to table. It is inspiring, eyes opening and very motivatin film about self love. Meanwhile I am struggeling about having body issues also millions of other women feel the same way... It is surprising how extremely gorgeous women can see herself in such an negative way with full of hate, no matter what you do or who you are, she can have exactly same issua than you have. Celebrities, models, mothers, students, taxi drivers or business womens - what ever is the body pressure, it can be there.At least now is the time to look at yourself in the mirror and see yourself in a very positive loving eye. Love yourself fully. Different is beautiful, we are all unique and special. As this movie inspire me to work on myself even more, maybe my story can do the same to you. Inspire, help or accept your self and other people exactly as they are.

I have learned it throught the hard away how destructive and unhealthy your self hate really can be, how far it can take you and how much it can hurt you and also people around you. It is hell on earth. Life is too short for that. If I look back in time, it started already since I was very young little girl. I remember when I was around 7 years old. I had a little bumper belly like everyone else around me, but I already knew how to hate my belly. When I got older things got more serious and more strong. First of all I was very skinny girl and of course comparing myself to the other girls and wondering how beautiful pop idols look on television or posters. At the school I was the kind of girl - who’s period started the latest and who’s boobs didn’t grew as fast as others, I felt very shamed about myself. I felt something is wrong with me. And few years later I got sick. 15 years old naturally skinny girl, who see her self in the mirror as a fat big, discusting monster. Meanwhile everyone was eating their breakfast I was looking myself in the mirror, where else I should lose more weight and how too much I had " fat " in top of my bones. Slowly it started. Eating disorders. I was going insane. Loosing the control of myself step by step. It gives a tear to my eye when I think back, young energetic aktive girl who stop eating, throws up after drinking one cap of juice or ate one piece of banana, thinking about calories all day long, food was the biggest enemy, being hungry for months and one day seeing love the feeling being hungry...List is endless, but it is real.

I hated my self, omgosh how much one little girl can hate. Outside I perfectly happy, always smiling and shining, but inside broken from strong self hate. I never stopped doing things, or never stopped to work hard. I was very energitic, loving life, laughing loud and always excited girl but only few knew what happened when doors close to the public. Everyday I must thank to God that it I got help, and lot of loving people around me. Years pasts but it is on-off fight, sometimes you are strong enough and sometimes you fell down again. It killed me many times and I really know how hell on earth it is, but I never give up. I know I am not the only one. It can be the women you look on instagram who has perfect photos and perfect life, or the most succees strong smiling women from your work...You never know, we all can get sick mentally. It does not check how you look or how succees you are, we all can fall in anyday, anytime, anywhere. Today I can be quite open about my experience. I’m on my way but still I has not arrived perfectly. I am actually better than ever about how I feel about myself and how I really learned to love myself. I have finally understood, I have only one body and I am going to fuckin love it. I always knew I have a good heart and I am a good girl, but it is important to see myself as a beautiful women standing at the mirror too. Love.

Open your eyes about the things what really matter in life and help the others do it too. It is supricing how many people struggle with own body image issue or mental issues. Love and accepct and even more love. We all need it.